Tuesday, August 23, 2005
never had i feel so tired n stress b4.... its has been nearlly 2 wks of travelling to the hospital aft work n all tis is taking a toll on mi physically n mentally... expenses shoots up also... guess the same happened for my sis n mum... all stressed n tired out!!! all we can pray nw is dat dad gets better in order to end tis ordeal...but the worst is yet to com, sis juz dropped a bombshell... the medical social worker has informed her dat we need to get the special oxygen machine for dad when he's discharge... it's nt cheap lor... if we buy, it cost 3k+++, if we r lucky to get 80% subsidies den we pay $600++. Should we wan to rent it, its $300++/mth with $75/mth deductible fm our cpf medisave n the reminder by cash... kaoz... we r nt rich lor, where to find $3k++ for the machine... we also need to employ a maid to help us look after dad!! mum has to look after my nephew, how to look aft dad also... nw a maid is definately a must to us, we hope dat we are eligible to employ one due to our problem... the MOM should understand us lor....DAMN STRESS OUT 'N' TIRED (PHYSICALLY N MENTALLY)!!!!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 5:10 AM
Somehow something happened on sat, was awoken by sis at 6.30am after she received a call fm the hospital asking us to go down immeditely.. they'd informed us dat dad was refusing everything, his medication n the very much needed oxygen... gosh!! wat happened... we quickly bathe n rushed there... reaching his bed, we saw dat the nurses had restrained him... his behaviour was agressive... the nurses said he's veri agitated. We did not sense any difference in him the nite before when we went hm, oni dat he was being quite depressed again.. keeps on saying he's dying and wun see tml... B4 we went hm, we gave him his hp which he used to called his frenz n my 2nd aunt to say farewell... my 2nd aunt whom we had nt contacted for a long time was shocked and went to cgh immediately to see him though it was already 10plus at nite... i was touched dat out of my dad's 3 siblings, at least one of them actually still cares abt him..As told by the nurse, dad had climbed out of his bed and walk ard the whole ward tokin out loudly, with the occasion vulgarities... when the nurse tried to stop him fm walkin ard n put him in a wheelchair, he went n took a spray fm the nurse station n sprayed at him... even to the extreme of hitting the nurse... not wanting him to hurt himself or cause hurt to others (nurse n patients), he was being re-strained on his bed... even being re-strained, he still spitted at the nurses... mi n sis were shocked to hear dat tis had happened... tis is definately nt dad's usual self.. wat has gone wrong??? we had alot of ??? in our mind.
A CT scan was to be done to find out why dad was behaving in tis way suddenly but the idea was eventually abandoned... coz even after injecting dad with some medication for him to sleep, he was so strong dat the medication had no effect at all on him... the medication can actually make a normal person sleep for a day... i guess for the whole of sat, dad oni slept for a few hours, fm lunch time till ard 4pm... when he's awake, he simply tok nonsense... he'd claimed mi, sis n the nurses were on cahoots to restrained him in order to pour kerosene to burn him to death.. he seem to be hallucinating too.. (due to lack of oxygen).His condition did b'com better on sunday though occasionally he will say the nurses are trying to murder him... sometimes he behaves like a child.... sometimes normally when having a conversation with my sis's mother-in-law or my nephew... it simply changes at times dat we do not koe when he's ok n when he's nt... I PRAY FOR DAD TO GET BETTER SOON N BE BACK TO NORMAL...
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 12:14 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Got a treat at Fish & Co. fm my boss today... it was her birthday treat to the company... ate until beri full.. maybe no dinner for mi tonite liao... tink over tis 2 wks i muz put off some weight... the stress fm dad's hospitalisation simply makes mi eat more den usual.. and also the treats to count... there were six of us.. mine was the last course to com though i wasn't the last to finish my food... i was always a fast eater except when it coms to porridge... hope i can lose some weight after going to the aqua aerobics class next wk, yesterday was supposed to be the first lesson but mi n sis skipped it as we need to visit dad at CGH... Guess dats all for nw... until the next time then...
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 5:34 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
Met my sec sch-mate Ellen for lunch today... she's so call my insurance agent coz i bought a cpf-investment fund fm her... had invested an intial amt of 10k which had so far earned mi SGD500+ in abt 6mths time... was persuaded by her to top-up my funds to 20k which i agreed to since i wasn't gonna use the monies until say 3-5yrs time later... my dear Ellen, pls make sure i dun lost ant monies else i'll cry one.. 20k not easy to accumulate in the cpf account leh... all my hard earned blood monies... if really lost monies, u muz pay me cold hard cash one ar... kekeke... juz joking lah... even lost also not ur fault lah...being tinking of an even old sch-mate and so called gd-fren (last time) Lily, didn't see her for ard 2yrs liao... heard fm Ellen dat she's nw working at DBS-tpy branch.. hope that all is well wif her.. due to some misunderstanding, we've not tok to each other liao... sometimes i dreamt dat we were still gd frens (hope dat was true)... i'm sad abt tis as our frenship was over 14yrs liao... i felt sori abt it... so how wishing dat we could be gd frens once more... and juz put watever happened in the past behind us... wonder if dat will ever happen anot??? all i can do now is hope for the best...
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 7:13 AM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Yesterday got free lunch from my boss, all thanks to our Vietnamese client who came over for a meeting. We has a set-lunch at East Ocean Teochew Restuarant located at Shaw House. The place was damn cold n we had to asked for the temperature of the air-con to be turn-up higher.The food was great!!! Sharkfin (my favourite), soy goose, roast chix, prawns, etc... it was juz too much for the five of us... we couldn't finish the food!! Imagine if everytime got client com for meeting, i'll get free lunch... i'll turn veri fat by then... kekeke.. Also got extended lunch time...
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 4:32 AM
i've always tot dat it's quite impossible to haf an understanding boss until i joined my current company... my boss Esther is veri nice to me (n everyone else in the company of coz), i'm veri happy here n hope dat i can stay in tis company as long as possible under her charge... Every morning w/o fail, she'll say hi n bye as n when she coms or leaves the office... unlike the previous bosses i had.. such a friendly lady!!! when she knows dat my dad was in the hospital, she consoled me n ask mi to go on leave until my dad's better, saying dat i was not to be worried abt my wk being affected. i was touched by her understanding, i had oni joined the company in june n will oni complete my probation end of the mth...i can say dat she's a veri supportive boss also. she'd asked whether i planned to continue my studies. i told her regarding the difficulties i had to find the $$ for the course fees. She immediately offered to be my guarantor should i need to borrow from the banks or credit company (coz guarantor muz earn 30k/annum n above). it's difficult to find someone who's willing to be a guarantor u know???Esther... u r so great!!!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 12:22 AM
Dad complained dat he was breathless n has no strength at all to walk last wed (10-Aug), so we sent him to the A&E at CGH (Changi General Hospital) ard 8.30pm. Aft a 2hr wait, the doc said dat dad's oxygen is nt enough which explained y he's feelin breathless... Oni need to be warded for 1-2 days. So after completing the admission at the ward (dat damn nurse took 45mins to complete the form... upon completion also nv tell us, make us stand there like goondus. Lucky i asked the staff nurse, else tink we'll be there till past midnite) we went home.The bombshell dropped the next day, the nurse suddenly called me in the aftn when i was at wk and asked us to go to CGH immediately... i asked her wat happened n she replyed dat my dad's condition was very bad n he can collaspe anytime.. hearing dat, i immediately called my sis n my mum to go to CGH and applied for urgent leave.Upon reaching CGH, my dad had already lost conscious and the docs were busy rescuing him... nv in my life had i seen so helpless... my mum, sis n i all burst into tears... we were afraid dat the worst was to com... over the yrs, although dad was always in n out of the hospitals, nv had he been in such a serious condition dat he lost his consiousness... he was sent to the icu and had to be put on the ventilator...we prayed dat he'll regain conscious soon n GOD answered our prayers. Dad was awake on Fri (12-aug) aftn when we visited him. Though he is unable to tok to us, we could at least communicate through writing... it was a relieve to us all... after so many days on the ventilator.. the doc will check today whether dad could be wean off the ventilator to breathe on his own.. I hope for the best.Reflecting on the past few days... mi n sis realised dat although there were times when we really hated dad (coz of his nagging, etc), in our heart we still loved him dearly..DAD, I LOVE U!!!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 12:04 AM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Yesterday Singapore turn the Big 4... how time seems to flies... Singapore was 16th going on 17th when i was born, now she's 4ty already.. we went down to our old place at purvis street which was near to the padang where the NDP was to be held at tis yr... coz we wan our nephew to experience the atmosphere of the celebration.We took the mrt and reached city hall stn ard 2.15, by the time we walked to the traffic light junction opp raffles hotel (grand old dame of Singapore), we caught the mobile column which was on the while to beach road for their standby... We felt veri lucky to be able to catch all these in actions before the ppl at the NDP as we oni expect to catch them in the evening... tink all these took ard 15mins, coz there were the all the transports from the army, navy, police, civil defence, etc... my nephew was so excited upon seeing all these and kept waving to them... the guys waved back too much to our delight! I guessed national day is a day where u can see the most guys ard... and lots of cute guys in the uniform... kekeke...After watching the mobile column, we went to our old place for a late luncheon (3pm liao), had chicken rice at the famous JinJin... but i tink their standard drop liao... spent SGD47 on juz a whole chicken, hainanese pork chop & vegetable (drinks n rice incl.). dats beri expensive lor... but courtesy of my hubby... After dat my sis treated us to a movie... we watched The Maid... quite a horror to mi (coz i scare to see horror movie).. so surprise dat my nephew can sit still throughout the movie w/o making noises.... he even fell asleep in the end... haha... movie ended at 6.30pm.Haha... managed to catched the mobile column again and the air force in action too... after all these we walked all the way to raffles hotel outside... stand at the side of the road and wait for the fireworks... tink we waited ard 20mins juz for the fireworks... it was briliant and worth the time waiting.... feel so happy to haf hubby by my side to catch tis moment... these end ard 9pm and we caught the bus home... my nephew havin spent such an energetic day.. waving to the army guys n watching a movie spent the journey home sleeping... wat a fun day we had... wish the ndp will be at the padang every day, so dat if we dun managed to get the tickets, still can go n experience the fun at marina south... but maybe next yr we shall spent $$ n book the hotel at Westin to catch a better view.
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 12:07 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
i feel so cheated by Cold Storage... went to buy some Meiji Yogurt which were on promotion (3 for SGD2.10)... selected my favourtie mango flavour n a aloe vera flavour (for mum) den proceeded to the counter for payment... i was totally flabbergasted when the cashier told mi the promotion oni for aloe vera n mixed fruited flavour... hey, for the past few weeks i was buying mango flavours n oni paid for the promotional price, hw can they juz suddenly drop a bomb on mi n said it's oni for certain flavours!!! seeing dat there was a long queue behind mi, i didn't wan to walk all the way back to the change the yogurt, so i simply told the cashier to charge mi as per the normal price (though i was on fire liao)... stupid cashier, already told her i'm willing to pay the normal price n she still tell mi... nt worth the $$ to pay so much.. it's mi $$ hor... tok so much for wat... siao!!! i bought 6 yogurts, at least she gotta right mind to charge me 3 on prommotion price.. else i'll @#$%!....
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 4:37 AM
Monday, August 08, 2005
yesterday nite went wif my hubby to golden mile complex to book for our trip to KL in Oct... as u koe dat there a no. of travel agencies there... we went ard looking for the best rates... we said dat transtar travel has a first-class 16 seater coach to KL, seem beri attractive leh (round trip is SGD96)... so we went inside n ask them the rates for booking in Oct.. from outside i see the staff in their uniform looked beri smart so i guess the service muz be gd lor... in the end got a shock... service so damn lousy one... they told mi the rates for oct will be out oni mid-sept (bullshit!!!) and he can't even gif mi an estimated amt of the rates... mi n my hubby sun believe lor... other agency there already promoting the rates all the way till 01-Jan-06... the transtar staff tink we stupid meh... so angry with them... wun let them earn our $$$... in the end we booking wif grassland travel, staff so polite n friendly.... *thumbs up* we booked 3D2N KL f&e... cost SGD308 for two pax... incl. of b'fast also at the Royale Bintang hotel.... i hope it will be a pleasant trip.. tis is gonna be mi 2nd trip wif my hubby overseas... i wan to shop till i drop.. hahaha... argh... but still got ard 3 more mths to 29-Oct....
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 11:58 PM
in my last post, i tok abt the smaller terrapin passing away, two days later the bigger terrapin past away too... well... tink we r reli a failure in rearing terrapins.... juz 1 mth's time n both r dead... my sis decided to buy another 2 terrapins to replace the dead ones... tis time we asked the aquarium shop owner y our terrapins will die so easier... and he explained that terrapins are like human, they will also haf cataracts in their eyes.. coz due to the lack of sunlight... no wonder.. we nv put out late terrapins in the sun leh... so tis time, we make sure dat twice a wk the 2 new terrapins get their dose of 30mins sunlight... i hope tis time they can live till a ripe old age... ganbate!!!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 11:45 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
was trying to add some counter n clock to my bloggie page, the clock is taking it own sweet time to load, guess 5mins also nt enoigh.. wait until i sian... so i read thru my previous blog n realised dat the cutie terrapin "Rushing out" died exactly 1mth after coming in our household... and also one day before the lunar seventh month... aniway, i juz com n blabber here abit coz i'm bored.. keke...
Bye!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 5:58 AM
Yesterday, i reached home to find dat one of the two terrapins has passed away... he used to be beri active when he first enter our household... so active dat we called him "Rushing out" or "cong chu lai". But juz abt 1 week ago, we found dat he was been bullied by the bigger terrapin, who keeps biting him when he's eating or climb on top of him... Since "Rushing out" is smaller in size, he couldn't fight back much... the skin on his head n tail was peeling, he nails been bitten off too... But i guessed it was too late when we finally separated them in 2 tanks.. we bought medicine for him, hoping dat he'll gets better but sadly he didn't... in his last days, his little head seem bloated n he didn't had any appetite, maybe due to his injuries.. So his little life simply ended... i supposed due to his injuries n hunger... Goodbye "Rushing out", i miss u!
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 12:10 AM
Friday, August 05, 2005
This is really sad. If you haf problems in your relationships, try and fix them. Dun pretend its okay. Dun push your girls away, they are everything to you. Maybe the best thing for you. Listen to them, Treat them like princesses, go out of your way once n a while for them, take care of them when they are sad, n dont let go.Girl: hey baby i want to show you....Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh.. i'm so madGirl: why? whats wrong ?Boy: ugh.. everythingGirl: explain babyBoy: just lost a championship game, my parents flipped out on me for no reason, n i'm catching a coldGirl: well.. hey there will always be other games, you know i'll take care of you when your sick, what did your parents flip about ?Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repairGirl: is it alot of money?Boy: no, it just sucksBoy: but.. hey i dont feel well im going to go laydownBoy: byeGirl: wait i want to give you some...Boy: can't it wait til tommorow ?Girl: yeah sureGirl: byeBoy: bye2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ... she goes..... her friend swerved to avoid a truck.... hitting a tree instead.. her friend was killed instantly.... she's in critical condition. This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriendSister: omg ( crying )Boy: what? whats wrong ?Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in amajor car wreckBoy: is she ok ? ?????Sister: shes in critical conditionBoy: i'll be there in 10 minutes.. He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door going over the last conversation in his mind over n over as he heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump.Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell mesomethingGirls mom: yeah this...it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick. he opened it.....it said ..... you r everything to me....i love you wif everything i am n everything i haf...i want to spend the rest of my life with you.. sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to n the first picture they took together.. he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture it looked as if in the picture she was crying, then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead...
Moo-ed Moo-ed @ 6:06 AM
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